Twelve weeks is a milestone and I’m glad to have reached it. Not that there’s been a miraculous recovery from early pregnancy symptoms, and some of the time I am still feeling frankly rubbish, but when I stand back I can definitely see an overall improvement.
Baby is: the size of a large plum. Looking quite human, moving around and practising making sounds.
I am: feeling much less sick in the mornings, though during the afternoon it usually gets worse and the evenings are still difficult. The dizziness is still the same, and I’ve also been feeling breathless. My iron levels are low which might explain some of the symptoms, so I’m doing my best to eat lots of iron-rich foods (I’ve developed quite an apricot habit, and today I was told that liquorice is good too so I’m snacking on that as well) and taking Spatone natural iron supplements. I’m hoping to avoid the dreaded iron tablets because I get ALL the side-effects but we’ll just have to see how it goes.
On a more positive note, I have been trying really hard this week to remember that there is a baby in there causing all this trouble, and allowing myself to feel a little bit excited about that. I’m still scared of having another miscarriage or finding out bad news at the scan next week, but I’m trying not to think about that too much. I’ve been listening to a hypnotherapy CD for morning sickness which has helped a bit, though in fact I haven’t been listening to the words that much. I’ve been finding it helpful as background noise to block out negative thoughts when I’m trying to sleep and it has given me a bit of space to focus on the baby. Little baby number five, you are going to have to fight your corner for attention in this family, but I will do my best to make sure you get your share.